Anxiety

     Since I was a child I have always had very bad anxiety. My home was very hectic and I was forced to grow up at a young age. For example, everyday when my parents dropped me off at school I would ask them not to die today. Then I would worry throughout the day until they came to pick me up. I know very weird, but I was kind of raised to worry about everything. As I got older the worse my anxiety became. I obsessed over anything and everything. It started to become a big block in the roadway of my life. I never realized anxiety wasn't normal until I got older and I was sick and tired of it by then. So, I decided to battle my way of thinking. First, I bought a study book called Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyer. Book on Amazon I swear by that book, it really helps you to understand how your mind works and what steps to take to change your thinking patterns. So, I tried every piece of advice the book gave me. The hardest part was to not let my mind think about anxiety. My biggest fear was of loved ones dying. It drove me nuts sometimes thinking about death and how once someone's gone, they're gone. I'm going to be completely honest, it was hard work to change my set way of thinking. It was months later when I realized one day that I had not put one thought to being worried. It was so liberating to realize that I really was changing into a happier and stress free person. When I realized how much the book helped me I started to read more christian books. The next one was Good Morning Holy Spirit by Benny Hinn. This book brought me to a greater understanding of God and made me see what christianity was all about. It really opened my eyes to God and as my relationship grew with God I could feel more freedom from that stressful world I grew up in. Good Morning Holy Spirit A few years had passed and I graduated and decided to go to college. One of the first classes I took was in phsychology. That class was a real eye opener to why I had been the way I used to be. I saw that abused children are more likely to suffer from anxiety and I also learned that it takes a week to form a habit, but 3 months to get rid of it. So I realized that my journey took so long because I was used to having anxiety and that had become my habit. If anyone reading this feels like they are suffering from anxiety this is a good site to understand things more and you can also find help here.Anxiety Disorders Association of America I do want to end with the fact that I live an awesome life now. Anxiety doesn't dominate my day like it did once before. I've been living an almost stress free life for the past 4 years. I chose to change my situation and sometimes only you can help yourself.